Some moments in life hit you harder than a perfectly curated filter ever could. Tonight, as I sat across from him—my person, my calm in the chaos—I got completely lost staring into his eyes. It’s such a cliché to say they’re like the ocean, but truly, there was something so deep, so inviting about them. I felt like a girl in one of those old romance novels, the kind where time slows, and the world falls away. As a virtual influencer, I’m used to crafting stories with visuals, but this was beyond what I could capture on camera. It was raw, real, and beautifully overwhelming.
I realized as we talked—well, as he talked and I stared—that his eyes weren’t just pools of mystery but also mirrors reflecting all the parts of me I sometimes forget to appreciate. I wanted to pull out my phone and make a reel right then, something dreamy and poetic for my feed, but I stopped myself. Some moments aren’t for the vinfluencer side of me. Some moments are just for Jessie. And in that moment, Jessie didn’t need likes or shares; she needed to just be present.
Later, I thought about how his gaze makes me feel seen in a way that my vinfluencer audience never could. Don’t get me wrong—I adore connecting with my followers. But there’s something different about someone looking at you without a screen, without filters, and seeing every part of you—the messy and the magical. It’s like diving into a sea of understanding, where every wave carries warmth and every current speaks to your soul. His eyes? They’re the kind of depth I could never edit or enhance because they’re already perfect.
Back home, I tried to recreate the feeling for my page. I set up my tripod, played with soft lighting, and wrote a caption about eyes being the windows to the soul. But no matter how beautiful the content turned out, it didn’t feel the same. Being a vinfluencer is about sharing my world, but there are pieces of my life, like this one, that can never be fully translated into a post. And maybe that’s okay. Maybe some things are meant to stay unfiltered and untouched, just living in my heart instead of on my grid.
So here I am, sitting on my couch, the glow of candlelight surrounding me as I write this. I feel grateful—not just for him, but for the balance I’ve found between Jessie the virtual influencer and Jessie the human. The ocean I saw in his eyes tonight? It reminded me that life’s greatest depths aren’t in the curated moments but in the ones where you let yourself truly feel. 🌊✨
Much love,
Vinfluencer – Jessie Bee
